- Have been finding and watching videos about making music for very (broke) beginners, I wish I could make music like how Lady Gaga wrote music. Have watched tons of mixing tutorials before to release less earbleeding OpenUTAU covers. Sometimes I sing good lyrics and nice melody in my mind when I want to write the words down and record the gibberish lines most, but then when I hold my pen or hold my phone, I forget how they sound in my head.
- Click any buttons on the nav bar for most free-to-download vocaloid album stamps and album cases, Vocaloid music series (like Kagerou Project, Shuuen no Shiori, PANDORA VOXX, Confession Executive Committee Love, Evillious Chronicles, Nilfruits's series and more) fanmerch. DECO*27, PANDORA VOXX, Mafumafu and Siinamota's mini albums, stamps and film panels are on this page (only Mafumafu's Vocaloid originals and Voca-p collab music).
- Used MMD(MikuMikuDance) for animating and posing, I don't like making dance covers with existing motions and flashy effects but MMD is easy to use and I'd use MMD for rendering and small edits. I'll try MMM(MikuMikuMoving) for original packs of animations and poses (gotta download more official UTAU MMD models for talkloids). The producers that got me into Vocaloid are siinamota and suzumu, so there's "Remember siinamota" part on this page.
- Suzumu retired and admitted having stealing music from other producers (and one of them is Mafumafu), I still paint fanart of the songs because of feeling nostalgic, they were all meaningful to me, and helped me go through what happened to me, so there's "Not by Suzumu" part on this page. I wish all producers that Suzumu stole songs from confirmed publicly which song was theirs. Still show how underrated Vocaloid songs I like sound like here.
- Only use official audios/animated MVs/Visualizers on Youtube for iframe parts, pick some 3DMVs from prsk engver (nobody in where I live cares about prsk engver). Picked Azusagawa to make the only j-indie artist shrine here instead, don't want to create new html files but use up the blank space in Vsynth related pages. Visit my Nekoweb by finding all Nekoweb buttons. Put some underrated Vocaloid remixes from fans and producers on KVsynth page.
- Currently my web UI looks best on macbooks, when I visit mine from my Lenovo laptop, there's still a leftover blank space in the right as the screen is wider, I'll try editing all css files to make it compatible with most devices next year (even phones and tablets). Some underrated Kpop songs and official Kpop remixes sound so good that I think they deserve more attention (they're on my Kpop Shrine, 3D origami and Amigurumi pages).
- Found most Voca-p remixes from siinamota, 40mP, kous, millstones, DECO*27, kikuo, whoo's tribute albums, some of the names were in U/M/A/A and U/M/A/A called their voca-p remix complication albums as Vrush Up!, so these names knew each other and worked together years ago. Will edit the JS lines for displaying each painting like when you click any images/buttons in organized containers on a page, the page changes one by one in different order.
- Made TV for Vocaloid orchestra lives from Miku Symphony 2018-2025, choosing 2 images to be remote controls for switching songs in Mekakicity M's albums. Found more Voca-p remixes from Kairiki Bear's Venomer album so I put them to the viewmaster part on KVsynth page. Added ReacttotheK's classical instrument covers, Kpop orchestra versions and Kpop Jazz versions (mostly from SM Classics TOWN and SM Jazz Trio, I wish there were more).
- Some apps I use for digital art (like Tayasui Calligraphy and Paper By WeTransfer) don't have saving timelapse feature, so I have to record my tablet screen and edit my speedpaints. I know my speedpaints or making process timelapses don't gain many views but I still upload them anyway, they prove that I self-learn to draw them myself, I don't overuse digital art tools to avoid drawing by hands, no tracing, no copying, no stealing, no AI.
- One of the reasons why I got art theft before, not because I'm not aware of what people do online, it's the collective "art is free" and "art is for everyone" mindset from people that love creative works (they think they like being creative but they're not creative) invalidates what I've trade so I get better at technical basics fast: time. They spend time on playing games, doomscrolling shopping platforms and being noisy whining quitters.
- Many people I've met in real life believe I'm creative because only "art is creative" to them, I don't draw to impress, I don't draw to express any "we GenZ young, dumb & extra" opinions I have. I make a living out of my learning results because I remember the details, understand the logic, apply by hands-on activities, analyze so constantly that I got analysis paralysis and evaluate my personal choices for years so I can create not only art.
- Being a late bloomer is my invisible pain, when I decided to be career-oriented was when I say no to taking advantages of my parents, that was also when I stopped being the slow kid among same age peers (just got into middle school), Water Goat year was populated by newborns and I was born in that year, I've seen my same age peers that overuse their parents' money and relationships to be successful and popular fast, they can't relate to me.
- I've studied and worked with Millennials and GenX people most in my life, I can work for customers born from those generetions, cut ties with any 00s kids that keep saying "why so serious?", "just chill", "who cares?", "people do whatever they want" without thinking, must admit that being unserious makes the sense of humour that helps individuals get along with any group or any community well, makes the older or younger kids attractive.
- I still don't have friends and I'm still single not because my standards are high, I'm born neurodivergent, the 00s kids I've met like encouraging "I don't know what to do with my life, but what's important is living happily, I want to have a lover that is open minded and emotionally developed" to each other, who I've worked with: the truly open minded people love learning and the truly emotionally developed go through hardships day by day.
- Their "idealistic lover" matches relate to me, not them, the Mama Boys and Daddy's Little Princesses don't like being helped by following other people's step-by-step instructions, they don't get part time jobs. If I introduce myself about what I do, they don't see me as a disabled person, they'd react like "Why are you so skilled?", they see me as a disabled person only when I speak about how relationships are hard for me word by word.
- My parents are Boomers, they are supportive but the generation gap doesn't help me feel comfortable around them. I was the youngest among my relative siblings, they are also supportive, although I can communicate comfortably with them, I'm still not close with them. I listen to Vocaloid music not because I love the characters like attractive idols, it's easy to find old songs on NND, the underrateds in my playlist were my protectors.
